bridesmaids

A few of us decided to go watch this movie yesterday - no expectations, just heard it'd be a funny movie. we laughed our way through the entire movie. there was just something about it, though absolutely ridiculous, that really touched somewhere close to home.

it's easy to hit rock bottom, and to be honest, when you do, there's nothing funny about it. There were so many parts of the movie where i wanted to hide my face and peek through my fingers and wish that it was over. the lead (Annie) just kept having bad thing after bad thing happen to her, and you just can't help but wonder WHY things suck so much.

there's a particular scene in this movie that asked an important question: are you willing to fight for your life?

It's so easy to join this pity party and just want things to get better. just... as instantly as things got worse, you wish for it to get better. But as in almost every chick flick, this never happens. things don't just get better, the main character has to turn around and fight for things to get better. there needs to be a change in attitude, a change in themselves

it's easy for me in my life to look at all the crap that's going on and wonder why i don't have a job yet, why i didn't get into the school i wanted for the program i wanted, why i'm not making more money, why bad things happen to me, why i don't have more friends. But what the heck am i going to do about it?

Sitting here in my butt and just wishing things to get better sure won't make things get better. Sometimes all it takes is getting back up when people reject you. sometimes it takes a lot more than that. sometimes people just keep pushing you down, or keep 'topping' you no matter what you do. but am i willing to fight for myself?

i sure hope so.